I guess it's been a few days since I've updated. Here's my obligatory bullet list:
-I found out yesterday my grandmother has cancer. The doctor couldn't even tell the family where it came from. It stretches from her esophagus to her shoulder. Thankfully, he said there's no time limit on her. She's 88, and he told Mom to just let her live out the rest of her days. Granny is the last living grandparent Amy and I have. She and I have always been close, so this breaks my heart. I certainly hope I can get down there to spend some time with her soon.
-We spent this past weekend in LaGrange with Amy's family. Her mom's birthday was Friday, so we all took her out to eat and shop in Warm Springs, GA. It was the first time I've seen Matt and Sara since Thanksgiving. It was good to see them, but also extremely hard to be happy around them. They're pregnant, and just found out they're having a boy. That's always been a dream of mine, especially since I'm Dad's only son and the last of my bloodline. I've discovered I'm far from being over our miscarriage. Amy had a rough time, too. We are happy for them, but it really puts an emotional strain on us to be around them. I can't even talk baby stuff. I have to escape the situation.
-On that thought, I am usually fine in most situations. Things tend not to bother me. My job requires me to stand off emotionally from a lot of things, and I think that's bled over into my personal life. That's not good. Now, if you're wondering if I'm up front with you on how I feel about you, I am very honest with my likes and dislikes. If you're reading this, chances are you've nothing to worry about. I'm talking about people who like to champion causes. You may have a certain charity you're involved with, or a group where you volunteer your time. While I think these are great things, I don't lend my time to them. People have asked me to join certain groups, and I think they have great responsibilities. I have thought about doing so, but in the end, I don't have a personal connection to them. Maybe all of this stems from me growing up without siblings, or just due to my job. I think it makes me very selfish with my feelings, and I don't like that. But when I do feel emotional about something (and that's not often), it hits me like a ton of bricks. Granny's cancer, the loss of our baby, etc. Maybe it's just me being a man, and I'm trying to analyze it too much. I've just noticed a lot of apathy has made its way into my life.
This doesn't mean I dislike people. Quite the contrary. I love being around people. That's a major perk to my job. I've made a lot of great friends. I've made friends with people in high places, and I've made friends with the average Joe. I like them all. There's hardly anything I wouldn't attempt to do for any of them. I love my family. I'd do anything for them, too. Sorry to rant on this subject. It's been on my heart for a while. If it doesn't make any sense, then just chalk it up to me working out thoughts and how they seem fine to me.
-I met Senator Richard Shelby today. He is a TALL man.
-I was supposed to go down this upcoming weekend to the River Festival in my hometown of Geneva, AL. I'm stuck working Auburn CityFest, though. I had to go down to Columbus to have head shots made so I can autograph pictures for people. C-h-e-e-s-e-y… I collect autographs… I don't give them out. That is, until now… I'm just a small-town reporter. There is no importance to my status whatsoever.
-…BUT on that note… Since I'm not going to Geneva, Justin is coming over from Tuscaloosa. We're heading to the Braves/Cardinals game Sunday. Very nice!
-I really need to be in bed, but I slept most of my evening away. I have to work day side again tomorrow, and I have to be at Auburn University bright and early for Homeland Security stuff. I can't go back to sleep.
-I bought Wrestlemania 21 for my Xbox. I highly suggest AVOIDING this game. I'm taking it back to EB Games for store credit. It caused my Xbox to freeze up a few times, and the frame rate on the transitions stinks. They should've spent more time on this before they shipped it.
-I guess I will go to bed. Rambling is complete.