I really should be working on my main freelance Web site right now, but the house is finally quiet.  I love my kids so, so much, but one of the main things that raises my blood pressure (literally) is all the noise they make.  I grew up in a house that was just me, Mom and Dad.  I also grew up in the country, so I cherish the silence I never seem to get anymore.

I honestly think I need to see a doctor about my stress because I’m not enjoying my family as much as I should right now.  Besides, if you’ve kept up with this blog, or (more particularly) my Facebook / update e-mails, you know how much stress we’ve all been under since last October.  Please don’t think I’m absolutely miserable, or dislike my kids because I don’t.

I just don’t do well, and I never have, with noise and clutter.  I don’t think that makes me a bad person.  It’s just the way I’m wired.  I grew up in a pretty orderly house, and it was nice and quiet almost all the time.  Now, the house is always wrecked because our daughter pulls things out and leaves them everywhere.  She also doesn’t have a volume control, and she loves to get L-O-U-D.  Throw in the son’s constant crying when he’s awake, and it’s a perfect situation to make me tense up.

Amy does awesome with keeping up the house, but she’s got both kids to look after.  I applaud and marvel at her patience and resiliance.  I certainly don’t tell her enough.  If I had a quarter of her patience, I’d be sitting on some mountain somewhere meditating all the time.

If you’re a parent, especially of multiple kids, you know where I’m coming from.  I love them so much, want to spend time with them … but there are so many days I look forward to getting in my car and spending the day at my office.  I only wish Amy had the same chance to break away, but when you’re a stay-at-home mom, you’re essentially trapped.

This honestly wasn’t the direction I wanted to go in tonight, but there you have it.  I’ve enjoyed more than anything listening to the quiet sounds of my keyboard.  It’s a complete shame it’s almost time for bed.  I’d rather be awake enjoying the silence.